01 July 2009 Wednesday, July 01, 2009
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Ok , so today im still away from sch. TWO days MC. :} but :{.
hmm. Woke up coughing like, idk. Just coughing. Woke up miserably, with my condition and with thoughts that has been bugging me. Grr ~ Msg 'Him' early in the morning;Kid: 'Him', Ive been thinking the whole night. I dont think we can ever be together. You've known 'Pg' way before you know me. You guys are Bestfriends and idw just because we want to be together, your relationship with 'Pg' sours. Idw to be selfish. Its hard to let go cause I ald like you :$. But I think this is the best way, right? 'Him': Hmm. Lets be close first and see what happens?Kid: No, this whole thing has been bugging my head. I feel very very miserable . It has put alot of weight on me. Its either we tell 'Pg' or we can never ever be together.'Him': I like you too. How?Kid: Tell 'Pg'.'Him': Not now ok ?Kid: I cant ! I cant ! I want keep things anymore. I need to let it out !'Him': Hmm. I'll try.Kid: :'(End..
Idk, Im still so very confuse. Will i ever be with 'Him' ? I know 'Him' is afraid to tell his Bestfriend about us, because his bestfriend is my friend too. Suddenly, i feel like 'Pg' is a judge. NO ! Like our parents, approving of our relationship. 'Pg'(you will know who you are one day), but if you ever were to know about 'us', can you not be angry and like.. I dont know. Im damn confused. This whole thing is really really bugging me. I'll just depend on 'Him' to tell 'Pg' the TRUTH !Anw, Family is having silent conflict. Meaning ? I also dont know. I know my Mum is a good daughter. Her sisters and brothers and even sister-in-law are All Jealous of my Mum. Nevermind Mummy, Im still here :} What I know is that, Grandma is now sick and she sometimes stays at my house or Uncles's house. Ofcourse, why would we mind putting her up at our house. Yeah, though my father is the Only one working. He's the Breadwinner. And he has to support and feed 6 + Grandma, 7 mouths. We never did complain. Aunties all know our family is stuck-up, but we never did ask anyone for help. Let me just get straight to the point. Just now, Grandma call Aunty to Withdraw her money. She needs it for her medication. Aunty were asking so much Question. And you know what, the way she ask was like as if Grandma Withdraw her money for my Family. Like WTH ! Then Aunty spoke to Mum on the phone. Aunty ask Mum, why did Grandma want to withdraw her money. Mum said she doesnt know. Then Aunty was hinting on something. She said, " I dont care if she withdraw her money for her self use, but what if she...?" Obviously, hinting at my Mum. Grr~ Nevermind. They can say whatever they want but its not going to affect Us as a Family :} Now im sitting here, still thinking of ALOT of things. Family, Friends, 'Him'. Hmm...Eating Cloud9 Chocolate, Yum ! :}Hee.. I Miss Alot of People.I Miss 'Him', Piggie, Adham, All Campmates of Odessy07, Bat, Paripari, Hunney, Some Ex-Jieminites and Ex-Sembawang-nians(esp the one just graduated Last Year) :}Adham, Goodluck on 7July. Hee. I'll Miss You Alot. Text me aye :}Labels: Anger, confused, cries, love, miserable, miss, scared
