24 August 2009 Monday, August 24, 2009
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I tried so hard but I guess I failed again.
Im refraining myself from posting 'Love post', but I guess I just can't resist it.
This is the part where im very weak at.
No matter how I tell people I hate him, I still love him and you know it.
Him ?
Who ?
Jyeah, Him.
Whoelese.
HIM !
Alarrr, just him.
In anyway and by right I should be doing my revision for O levels,
And guess what, Olevels is just 63 days away and I have not start a single revision, not concentrating in class.
Having sleepless nights and (i didnt sleep in class) but jyeah, I cant focus.
And thinking of things that I shouldn't be thinking NOW !
Also, plus my dance practice for teachers day, (oh, im singing tomorrow) so wish me luck chiqkas :}
And my dance for Kak Ira's wedding.
Next week is my prelims, this Thursday is my English Olevel oral and I can still dance here and there.
I still have floorball and THANK GOD, due to the fasting month and Hari Raya, it will only resume AFTER Hari Raya.
As for skating ?
Well my deck broke and im still saving money to buy a new deck but that can wait, for now im just using my friend's deck :}
So jyeah, I have so many important things that I should be thinking right now, but I just Can't !
Everynight before I sleep, he will appear.
People say 'love at first sight' is bullshit.
But I dont believe them.
Because Ive experienced it before and Im experiencing it again.
I love him, but I dont know if i should tell him.
I think he knows, but that was when we use to have a 'secret date' thingy, whatever you call it lah.
But it was long over, but my feelings for him has never stopped.
I hope he knows this.
I really dont know what else to say, I just want him to know that I still do care a whole load for him, But
If I do, then he have to make a choice.
He knows what I mean.
'Him', I hope you know who you are.
You know this 'problem' which may take forever to settle, (but you really gotta make the choice)
I just want you to know that my feelings for you have never change.
I may like someone else and I dont deny that, But I dont know why I just cant get you out of this head/mind of mine.
I did, and Ive ever tried stop thinking of you and just push you away but your image just keep coming back.
You may not have make any great impact in my life.
And though we've known each other for more than a year now, but we only met a couple of times.
But THAT couple of times mean a lot to me.
I just hope we could hang in there and fight this weakness of ours.
And i miss you like hell !
For now, I need my peers support !
I need to get my thinkng back to my books !
I need to start my revision like NOW !
I should be panicking but its weird that im not, Really !
Im just a weirdo.Labels: and guess what, ive just wasted my time blogging -.-"
