12 October 2009 Monday, October 12, 2009
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I know I know.
It has become my favourite phrase.
Yeah, anw, I want to take this opportunity to congratulate Kak Ira.
Performed at her wedding yesterday.
Had fun, but my sister spoit my fun.
Nevermind, lazy to talk about it here.
Anw, Im having mixed emotions.
Or feelings, whatever you call them.
Im happy, in fact im Elated the fact that I feel much secure now when im with him.
But also, I feel like as if he's going to leave me again sooner or later.
And when I say soon, I dont mean in a weeks time or a month.
Maybe a year or two.
God knows.
Im scared, really really scared.
I feel like stopping the time.
I dont want to be left again.
Not just that, I dont want him to be far apart.
Ok seriously, when im feeling all emotionally, [see]
Im not even speaking English.
Gosh,
Actually, this is what he asked me the other day.
He was talking about which Poly I want to enter and what courses im going to take [if i pass]
And was talking about what I dont know 5 years in NS or whatever.
I wasnt really paying attention as I was too sleepy, on my journey home.
But I got the idea roughly.
And he was considering on his "life journey" I must say.
He told me once about migrating to Australia and studying there.
I dont know, but everytime he talks about that, I just feel like capping my ears.
I dont want to know, I dont want to listen.
Its like him telling me "Im leaving you soon".
And he was asking for my opinion on which to choose,
Stay in Singapore, study here for I dont know how many years and serve the NS for 5 years,
Or Migrate to Australia and study there.
I told him that he has to make the choice himself.
Its his life.
But the fact is, I feel like telling him
JUST STAY IN SINGAPORE and you know, dont go anywhere far from me.
I know I know, If I say that to him, I'll be the MOST SELFISH girl.
But I just cant bear to part with him.
Whatever it is, it is still his decision to make.
Its his future.That's it, Happy reading, Nights.Labels: Dont leave me again ok
