30 October 2009 Friday, October 30, 2009
comment (0) / top
Met my girls.
Fee down,
Ee down,
Im down.
Lyza brought us up.
K that didnt make any sense at all.
Sat at the pondok where I was chased by my own species.
MONKEY !
Near 'bf' house.
Fee saw him.
I turned and saw him carrying his deck.
Skating perhaps.
[Mesti dgn Haziq and Sparrow]
And who knows whoever is there.
K nevermind.
Im just assuming.
Msged him.
Told him I saw him.
Guess what ?
He didnt reply.
Im sad.
Im really sad.
What's his reason for not replying ?

I saw him walked passed me.
He was there.
Right before me.
Just a few metres away.
But I didnt even get to talk to him.
He didnt even reply me.

Is he giving up ?
Should I give up ?

I Miss him so much.
I cant take this anymore.
Please show me what you want or expect of me.
I wont know if you just keep it to yourself.
I cant bear to let this love go away.
Im distracted.

Labels: Baby whats your motive ?

29 October 2009 Thursday, October 29, 2009
comment (0) / top

Labels: K bye

28 October 2009 Wednesday, October 28, 2009
comment (0) / top
I know,
How long have we not contacted ?
How long did this 'coldwar' went on ?
But this afternoon you suddenly msged me about Baba.
Im sorry for you.
I know Im not much of a help.
All I can do is just give you advise.
You keep on saying youre not strong and therefore you are not strong.
Tell yourself you ARE strong.
It helps you know.
You have to try to believe it.
Well ofcourse you cant only say it once and hope it will work.
Close your eyes and say it 33 times.
Go on and try.
And not forgetting, pray to Allah.
HE's the only one that can help you, your family and Baba.
This is life, face it.

Had my maths paper TWO just now.
OhMyGod !
I slept only at 3 in the morning just to do my revision.
Ive never ever sleep so late just to do my revision but guess what ?
I screwed up.
Believe it or not, I didnt even read Q 8 and 9.
What !?
And I didnt even know there was a Q on Probabilty.
There was ??
Pffft~
So you guess?
How did I fair for my maths.
BAD !!
There goes my wish on achieving 15 points.
:( So in the next 4 days, Im going to face another Hellish week.
Combine Humanities and Science.
Ahh !
Nevermind, get this done and over with.
But still I have to thank Allah that some Q were manageable.

After the O levels, I still have one more exam to take.
To work on my relationship.
Lol, and you were thinking what examinations Im going to face.
Well, Baby, you know yourself well,
You are Irony, Ego and Stubborn.
Behind all these, I know youre the Sweet and Loveable Boy,
Like how every girl wants her boyfriend to be.
Well, I have to read and understand you.
And Im definitely going to work out on this,
On us, I mean.
Just be prepared ok,
I love you :)

So its finally a short break, before next Monday's paper.
Going to have another study date with Feeeeeeeenah.
My Sayang tau.
LOL.
Ok, so Im going to take just a little break and get back to my books.

Bye people :)
I Love BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT !

Labels: And you thought I didnt care

27 October 2009 Tuesday, October 27, 2009
comment (0) / top
Dia sudah 16 sei, LOL
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY !
I Love you manymany kkies :)

Labels: Sabo nak ?

Tuesday, October 27, 2009
comment (0) / top
I was changing my blogskin yesterday.
Yeah, for the THIRD time this week.
And while I was doing that, I private-d my blog for awhile.
And forgot to unprivate it.
Haha, Sorry Readers.
Never meant to keep it secret. :)

I was browsing through the net and realise it is indeed a small world.
Haha.
Random shit, I know.

I suddenly miss Floorball like hell.
It was suspended since the Ramadhan Month.
*thinking back* Suspended eh ?
Yeah, eversince my English papers are like done and over with,
My English has become @#$%^&* [no words can describe]
LOL.
Another Random shit -.-"

Actually Im stressed !
Eh NO, Im stress !
LOL. Stress can still LOL.
Yeah, Too stress that it has affected my brain.
I guess.
Completed my first round of HELL-Maths.
Another one coming tomorrow.
Actually, some were easy.
But some questions are just such a Bitch !
Arghhh !
Damn !

As days passed me like a breeze.
I missed you more and more.
Cheydebah !
Another favourite word I like to use.
LOL.

So yeah, been adicted to A7X song Afterlife.
I just like The Rev play his Drums.
Its like oh so cool.
Andand, Syn !! He's hot aint he ?

Ok, All thanks to MonMon and his friends.
Since they brought me to the gig, Haha, so here I am.

Okok, Bye.

Labels: Blahblahblah

26 October 2009 Monday, October 26, 2009
comment (0) / top
Yeah, that's the state Im in.
Im like in a #$%^&[speechless] state.
I dont even know where I am.
Quit thinking.
So yeah, I changed my blogskin again,
Its the third this week.
Sorry if it was in the private state.
Ok, its back !
[Im talking crap ok]
My prepaid is low.
Beloved ones, sorry for not replying.
I feel like slapping myself hard.
Like Real hard.
Do it for me can ?
I still can't believe that O'levels has arrived at my doorsteps.
And Im still in my Lalaland.
English paper was ok lah.
Haiya.
Must have confidence.
I know.
Now Im chatting with someone.
He volunteered to help me with veryveryvery last minute revision.
Hope it will help :)

Goodnights.

Im still thinking of you, Irony Boy.

Labels: Get me out will ya?

25 October 2009 Sunday, October 25, 2009
comment (0) / top
So here I am.
Still on my lappy and blogging.
Tomorrow is my BIG DAY.
O LEVELS !
Urghh !
Im trying to put this thought away.
But can I ?
Im afraid its going to affect me tomorrow.
I believe everything happens for a reason.
But Im just so curious to know what that reason is.
Come on Akidah, you are strong !
Yes I AM !
But youre talking about my weakest point in life.
LOVE.
Urghh!
I hate this.
I need my 'tediboar' now.

Baby, why must we be like this ?
Get back to you after our O's.
Do your best ok.

To everyone, you too do your best for the O's ok :)

Labels: We will get back one day. I promise you this.

24 October 2009 Saturday, October 24, 2009
comment (0) / top
Im Happy
Im Crazy
I saw Lesbians kissing
I saw Gays hugging
Im Sad
Im Angry
And at the end of the day,
Im DISAPPOINTED !
I had fun but went home with tears.
I hate this.

BYE !

Labels: You said you'll never do it again but you still did

22 October 2009 Thursday, October 22, 2009
comment (0) / top
Try skating with these, its super cool, ive tried, no doubt :)

Labels: I love my people :)

21 October 2009 Wednesday, October 21, 2009
comment (0) / top
Woke up early in the morning.
Went to school.
Blahblah.
Then went Banquet with my class girls.
They actually have to go all the way from sembawang to woodlands just to eat.
-.-"
Suffered[still suffering] mensuration cramps.
Damn ! Hurt like hell, reached home, lie down and just couldnt get off the bed.
Then suddenly remembered I need the notes for tomorrow's Science Practical.
Notes with BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT !
Msged him like !#$^&*#$%^ but still didnt want to wake up.
Called him dont know how many times also still didnt want to wake up from his 'hybernation'.[this was still in school]
Then suddenly.....he called back.[at banquet]
Ahhhhh, at last ! Haha.
Then went his house and take notes.
With the pathetic cramps. Mannnnnnnn !
And to top it all, I was VERY tired.
So guess what I did at BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT's house?
I sleep. -.-'. Ohoh, slept I meant.
I was sitting at the sofa then found myself fast asleep on the sofa.
You could guess how tired I was or rather, am tired.
WAIT !
We did nothing k.
Ok move on.
Oh yeah so I went there just to take my notes and SLEEP at his house.
How pathetic !
I slept like a pig. You could say that again.
I just hope I didnt snore.
If I did, it would have been embarassing.
Then went pondok zam.
Then the cramps came again.
Ahh, shitty !
Went home and here I am.
I want go sleep already.

So to BAAAAAAAAAAAAAT, Babes, Dudes, Friends and ALL students taking Olevels Practical tomorrow, GOODLUCK ok !
Nights chiqkas.

I need my goodluck dream. Baby, I'll dream of you ok :)

Labels: Exhausted. I love BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT.

20 October 2009 Tuesday, October 20, 2009
comment (0) / top
My boredom was totally killed today.
Met Finah :)
That sweet loves.
Had a study date with her just now at Fajar MacD.
BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSST !
I swear it was covered with our longlong stories rather than studying.
Then we walked past Pondok Zam.
Just for fun. We had nowhere to go.
Then I felt uncomfortable. So does Finah.
I know why, BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT wasnt there and so is Raden.
So we just walked past and say hi and exchange greetings and walk off.
Went Bangkit accompany her tukar baju.
Then we walked to BPP pula. Haha.
She wanted to return her library book.
Then dont know where to go again.
Study again at BPP MacD. Haha.
And again, covered with our stories. LOL.
Then......suddenly Finah ajak me go Singapore Sports School.
Watch Raden's soccer match. Hee.
And I forgot Praan and Jasper were also there playing.
But I didnt saw Praan though. Only Jasper. :)
Then blahblahblah.
And Home.
Then Finah msged me and say that Raden was Serious Shit-ting.
[Cant say here lah, personal]
Maybe meeting her tomorrow again :)
You got to be strong k baby :)
You know what I mean.
Finah say "Mesti ada yakin"
Apply that to both of us on our Love life :)
Saya harus ada yakin yang BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT sayang sama saya :)
Kamu juga ya Finah ?

Labels: BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSST

19 October 2009 Monday, October 19, 2009
comment (0) / top
Im sorry if this is Disgusting.



See at the back of my tongue ?
The weird spots ?
Spot them ?
Jyeah those.
I know its digusting.
But it is also scary.
I don't know how I obtained them.
Am I suffering of any kind of Ilness ?
Or maybe Im just so tensed and stressed thinking too much of these.

Labels: Dont ask me. I wont tell.

17 October 2009 Saturday, October 17, 2009
comment (0) / top
Do all dreams come true ?

I had a dream last night.
Actually, its more of a Nightmare.
So it won't come true, will it ?
I dreamnt that I found a new guy.
He was superly HOT, HANDSOME and he's a CAUCASIAN.
And I was obviously dating him.
Then I suddenly woke up.
End of dream.
It was a GOOD dream actually.
To actually dream of someone HOT and HANDSOME.
But I didnt want that dream to come true.
So it was a Nightmare to me.

I went Bp yesterday.
JUST to meet someone and study with him.
And blahblahblah.
Everything was fine then until I was about to go home.
Asking him to send me home was like asking him to take the sun and the moon for me.
I mean, im not complaining.
Looking back, on this year's Valentine's Day, when every guy sends his girlfriend's home, I was in the train ALONE going home.
I told you im not complaining neither am I raking up the past.
But, I mean, Can't I just have that one moment, JUST THAT ONE MOMENT of ROMANTIC.
No I meant ROMANTIC MOMENT.
Ahh shit, what the hell.
I mean like ahhhhhhhhhh...FUCK.
[My first vulgar on blog]

I wonder when my hand is going to recover.
I need it for examinations.
Yeahyeah, It is swollen because why ?
I was too angry yesterday that I punched everything that gets in my way.
Enough talking.

Lyza bby, Im sorry about today.
And to all my babes, I just hope everything will be back like how it used to be.
And no matter what happens or no matter how angry I am,
I am never going to hate you.
I love you BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT.

Youre not my first. [That' the truth]
But you are DEFINITELY my last.
I promise.
Take Care, Nights :)

Labels: By the way Im really sorry for what happened yesterday

13 October 2009 Tuesday, October 13, 2009
comment (0) / top
Today, didnt go to school yet again
Tomorrow going JB with Ee, Kak Ira+Her husband, Kak Sheila and I dont know who. Hahh.
Thursday is my graduation day.
Three thing.

• Im happy that it is actually the last day of school.
• It will also means my days to Olevels are shortening [if there is such word]
• But im seriously going to miss my secondary life, really.

The fact that im definitely going to leave this school and,

1. New school
2. New life
3. New friends
4. New classmates
5. New me, [definitely]

Im freaking out.

That's it, I want to blog but a cockroach suddenly appeared,
Im out of here.

Oh oh, and I love BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT !
Ok Bye, nights :}

Labels: Pfft~

12 October 2009 Monday, October 12, 2009
comment (0) / top

"Daad" means Dead

"Bolog" means Blog

"Houme" means Home

"Tyhoon/Typoon" means Typhoon

Learn from us, we will guarantee you an F.

Haha.

Labels: The best dancers ever

Monday, October 12, 2009
comment (0) / top
I know I know.

It has become my favourite phrase.
Yeah, anw, I want to take this opportunity to congratulate Kak Ira.
Performed at her wedding yesterday.
Had fun, but my sister spoit my fun.
Nevermind, lazy to talk about it here.

Anw, Im having mixed emotions.
Or feelings, whatever you call them.
Im happy, in fact im Elated the fact that I feel much secure now when im with him.
But also, I feel like as if he's going to leave me again sooner or later.
And when I say soon, I dont mean in a weeks time or a month.
Maybe a year or two.
God knows.
Im scared, really really scared.
I feel like stopping the time.
I dont want to be left again.
Not just that, I dont want him to be far apart.
Ok seriously, when im feeling all emotionally, [see]
Im not even speaking English.
Gosh,
Actually, this is what he asked me the other day.

He was talking about which Poly I want to enter and what courses im going to take [if i pass]
And was talking about what I dont know 5 years in NS or whatever.
I wasnt really paying attention as I was too sleepy, on my journey home.
But I got the idea roughly.
And he was considering on his "life journey" I must say.
He told me once about migrating to Australia and studying there.
I dont know, but everytime he talks about that, I just feel like capping my ears.
I dont want to know, I dont want to listen.
Its like him telling me "Im leaving you soon".
And he was asking for my opinion on which to choose,
Stay in Singapore, study here for I dont know how many years and serve the NS for 5 years,
Or Migrate to Australia and study there.
I told him that he has to make the choice himself.
Its his life.
But the fact is, I feel like telling him
JUST STAY IN SINGAPORE and you know, dont go anywhere far from me.
I know I know, If I say that to him, I'll be the MOST SELFISH girl.
But I just cant bear to part with him.
Whatever it is, it is still his decision to make.
Its his future.

That's it, Happy reading, Nights.

Labels: Dont leave me again ok

09 October 2009 Friday, October 09, 2009
comment (0) / top
Akidah
Bat
Cute
Danish



End

Labels: ABCDE

Friday, October 09, 2009
comment (0) / top
Lets talk about guys.
I know I know.
O level is like two weeks time [maybe less, I dont know], and I shouldn't be talking about this.
But this is my say, I miss being love.
Dont even talk about me loving someone, because I have loved him all this while and Im never tired of it.
Its just that I miss the feeling of being love.
I dont know how to put this, maybe I shouldn't.
Maybe it is meant to be that way.
Sayang is taking the O's too, I wonder how he is coping.
My babes and dudes all seem to be enganged in this thing called 'Study'.
While I, I dont know.
I spent my days, Almost everyday, Dancing.
Its not a problem, really.
Its something call PASSION.
Jyeah, Its my PASSION.
And no one can Ever ever stop me.
Berani kau stop aku, cuba lah ok.
If I were still with him, [we are still together lah]
Yesterday would be our 10 months together.
He dont know, He doesnt remember.
He dont even remember my birthday.
Shit !
Guys, you still there? I feel like Im talking to myself.
Ok back.
Jyeah, so where was I, oh, Im not complaining,
I just want his love ok.
Like all couples do.
Sebenarnya, aku jealous tengok kawankawan aku.
Everyday I go for practice with Ee, She's always with Neo.
Physically or Not, I can feel he is always there for her.
Envy kau lah Ee.
I ask nothing much, I just want to be appreciated and loved.
And I can only accept one guy, Md Iskandar :)
Ok ok, tak mahu bilang nama penuh.
BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT !
Ee will always say that to me.
Haha.
Jyeah, Aku Sayang BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT sahaja ok.

Im not in school today and yesterday,
Apa nak jadi dengan aku ni.
K whatever,
Dance practice with Ee later at RP.
Tomorrow Kak Ira's Wedding, can't screw up dohhh !
And I just realise its a long post.
Happy reading readers :}

Labels: BatKiddy, with love

06 October 2009 Tuesday, October 06, 2009
comment (0) / top

Labels: I miss him alot